Do you ever have a moment where you look in the mirror and ask yourself “how did I get to this point in my life?” I had one of those about 2 weeks ago.
I had just gotten out of the shower and as I was looking in the mirror it dawned on me that it was the 6 month anniversary from when I began my work at Pleasant Valley Mennonite Church. This spiraled into my sudden realization that I am now 28, have been married for 5 years, I am finally done with all of my official education and have now been working as a solo pastor for 6 months.
What’s more amazing, it’s not like any of those things just happen (well…except for being 28), they all require a significant amount of intentional energy and focus to accomplish. Perhaps this is such a strange feeling for me because when you are in the midst of working to all of these goals, you don’t really have a lot of time to process what will happen when you actually achieve them.
So here I am………..now what?
That’s not completely true. I’m not completely lost. I am blessed to be working with a church that seems (for the most part) to actually be paying attention to the things I say on a weekly basis and that has (so far), given me the space to be human as well as a pastor. We are also in the beginning months of a new school year and an exciting youth program that has good leadership who are growing with and leading the youth.
I also recognize that I’m still new at this whole thing. And by “this whole thing” I mean my job here at PVMC as well as being an adult in general. I’m sure that many reading this blog will think “ahh, 28, to be young again”. I’m self aware enough to realize that I’m definitely on the upswing of life. I’m also old enough to know that I’m not bulletproof anymore and that the superior intellect that I possessed during my adolescence has now begun to wear off.
Life is in a constant state of flux. But it’s worth stopping every now and then to mark the seasons.